Scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As much as I want to scream all my desperation right now, on the opposite I know that no one will ever be able to help me, other than myself.
So.... just live the life to the fullest , and never regret anything! otherwise I'll just make it even worse. hehe
I wish I had my father alive, there're many things that I want to ask him, things about life, money vs. education, family vs. myself, etc..
But NO! I will not blame my condition. I must make my own way out of this black hole ^^
Ciao!